Photo of me by Julia
Photo of my beautiful radiant friend Julia
I picked up my camera for the first time in 2 years in a field of flowers with one of my greatest friends. It felt good to be reconnected, with my camera, with the earth, with the energy of creativity. I think everyone experienced varied levels of trauma during the pandemic, for me it was very difficult and scary, traumatic. I can create through a lot of things, I discovered that severe trauma isn't one of them. I'm not really sure what happened but I felt very focused on survival and somehow didn't want to pollute my creative process with it. I couldn't even touch my camera...I could barely leave my room other than to work in the salon which in itself was life saving..soul saving, if I want to be honest, to be able to connect with other beautiful living beings to bring something good to their days of unrest and uncertainty. Some of us lost some really core people on our lives, and the grief for me was astounding!
The years ahead may still be chock full of all kinds of uncertainty, but we are going to make it, and push through toward the sun somehow, no matter how clumsy and awkward and self conscious it feels. I want to live fully every minute, I want to kiss my camera every time I pick it up like my mentors did. This life force is everything even with it's pitfalls of great losses, I want to live because they no longer can. I want to "love fiercely because this all ends."
I learned something from sunflowers on this day, the flowers turn their heads to the sun during the day to charge up with life force and then they turn their heads away at night to root and grow by the light of the moon. Nature always has it figured out, I'm cheering it on to keep winning no matter what mistakes we make to try to destroy it and ourselves. There is more work, and more joy and more love and passion to experience, more art to create, more life to live. To bask in the desire for more.
"Tonight I looked across a blue sky in the fading light of day and saw at least a thousand shades of blue. I tried to notice each one as though I would never know them again"
~David Leeson
~David Leeson
Rest in Power and Grace
Lori Leinart
David Lee Schloss
David Leeson
Michel Cowsert
"If you want to find the creative spirit within you then find that moment when you believe nothing more can be done, and then go further"
"Be here now and find thirty seconds of experience
worthy of thirty years of life"
~David Leeson